I hate u . Loveless Betch .

 

I. Start ripping my napkin into little pieces.

Which is what i always do when Im stressed.

Why do I have to put up with her constant lectures ?

I HAVE TO TELL U

''You have no right to treat me like this.''

My own father doesn't even lecture me like this.

''I have a good life.''

Then forcing a smile.

I am running in the rain back to my dorm as fast as I can .

I yank off my shirt and grab the razor.

I dun give myself to think. 

I just slice.

Blood is goshing out of my wrist so i instinctively grab a hand towel hanging near the sink.

I press it against my wound while pure terror races through my veins.

What did i do?

What did i do?

WHAT DID I JUST DO.

I stumble into the halfway toward the pay phone.

Still dutching the razor.

Dripping a trail of blood.

I hate myself but I cant stop.

I've been dumped.

Hot raging tears full my eyes and spill down my cheeks .

 

I Miss U Badly. Indeed.

 

P/s : I really think that I look like Taylor Swift in this picture :D HAPPY .

When the black shadow of guilt that passes over me.

Is sudden and unexpected.

I dun know WHY.

WHAT is this.

WHO i thinking right now.

WHERE is the place to let me get away from this trauma.

I often excuse myself and go to somewhere else.

I Close my eyes and try not to let the tears drop.

Trying very hard to recapture a memory of u.

But.

IT DOESNT COME.

如 果 没 有 了 眼 泪 心 是 一 片 干 涸 的 湖 .

有人說 : 分 手 兩 字 讓 我 很 難 啟 齒 .

                                其實它不會很困難.

Actually Its SHIT even if u are the one instigating it . 

My Friend  on the other hand . is an expert in breaking up with mens .
 She does the ''there isn't anyone else I just wanna to be friends'' things really well.
   Mens accept it. Even though in the back of their minds they KNOW shes telling a porky pie.

Being dumped is really horrendous : especially if u didnt really see it coming .

This happened to me.
        I didnt see the gal . waving her fucking crotches knickers in the background.
               or realise why my boyfriend was losing his temper so much at everything I did.
                     was because he was justifying his actions.

He was looking for the final arguement : the one I would say : 

''WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH U ? ''

   and he could reply with a : 

'' NOTHING.ITS U.. ITS US . we are just not working. imma leaving,

Do u go back for a ex ? That fucking betch that always putting thick make-up
                                                          Acting pity .
                                                                         Talking crap ?

Oh. cmon gals . I TELL U  mens are really SHIT  .
 They often have a rush to protect the smelly dogs in the rubbish dump .
Its one of those questions that divides us all . 

If hes the ONE.

He will look to the future and not to the past.

Im always where im :

ON THE FENCE. DANGLING MY LEGS.

LOOKING AT THE COUPLES

AND THINKING HOW BEAUTIFUL THE SCENERY is.

By : Cheyenne Cookie Monster

 

 

 

愛情中的最難

最難遇的

是碰上那種他會非常愛你，

你也愛他，但不用愛得像他那麼用力的人。

最難為的

是同時愛上兩個人，終於決定捨棄其一。

最難辦的

也是同時愛上兩個人，但又不願捨棄任何一方。

最難忍的

是當街遇到舊情人摟著一個品味比你差太多的新歡，

而你那位比對方體面許多的情人，卻剛好不在身邊。

最難堪的

是你自作多情對人好，卻被對方指控騷擾。

最難辯的

是你明明對他毫無感覺，

但他卻大肆對周遭友人宣揚你對他有意思。

最難拿捏的

是關心太少，被視為冷漠無誠意，太多又有雞婆管閒事之虞。

最難拒絕的

是被人一廂情願的暗戀，

暗戀到讓你沒有機會向對方挑明自己不能接受。

最難接受的

是你早已嫌棄對方，卻被對方搶先一步提出分手。

最難控制的

是情人的胃與心，該吃該愛都只能由他。

最難演練的

是欲擒故縱，技巧稍有疏失，就成了"放生"。

最難表達的

是讓對方知道，其實你正在等他前來示愛。

最難決定的

是你面前出現了有財無才，有才無財，

及才財兼備，偏偏又不夠愛的人， 讓你任選其一時。

最難啟齒的

是你主動提出分手，說得太絕會被罵負心，

太婉轉又怕對方沒能體會， 還要繼續和你手牽手，做"好朋友"。

最難收放的

是為愛付出，太多恐有血本無歸之風險，

太少又怕投資不夠，回報無期。

最糟糕的

是你才剛和他許下了山盟海誓，永不分離，

就又發現了另一個讓你無法自拔，深深吸引的人。